Time : 6.31pm

Tomorrow will be a suffer day. My millions and billion of brain cells will been killed and dead after I do my paper, MANAGEMENT. God please bless me, I hope I can at least pass in this paper. Until now I haven`t start even a word and ITS A LOTS OF NOTE TO MEMORIZE. OMG ~
Stop procrastinate please ...

Depression

How I gonna express my feeling now? My heart was like strike by few knifes. Feel like wanna crying out loud but failed to do that. My heart was been hurt so deeply. MY GOSH !


GOD, please show me a direction how I gonna passed this difficult stage. T^T 


I am listening to a Korea song and keep repeating it. Although I could not understand this foreign language, but I can feel the blue from the melody. Just like my feeling right now. I write this blog isnt wan`t to show you how sad am I. Just wanna tell you how you are so important for me as a BEST FRIEND.

BEST FRIEND, I know is my fault, I made apologize and you didn`t accept it. I can understand because I ever hurt you twice before. You will never forgive me easily this time. I am ready for it. Just waiting for you to say that word to me. BUT YOU NEVER DO THAT.


I feel so sorry and cant forgive myself. I know you are trying to minimize our argument and stay happy. Is my fault, my stupid, hurt you and spoiled your trust on me. I am here to say : SORRY ...!!

I REALLY HOPE I COULD DO SOMETHING FOR YOU TO MAKE YOU FELL HAPPY. ANYTHING YOU LIKE.

PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME THAT WAY, BEST FRIEND...

 

STRESS

There`s been a long time I didn`t update my blog as well. It is the right time for me to blog.

I had deactivated my facebook account for some private reasons. 

First of all, I think probably is my final exam is near to the corner. It just left 11 days to the end of the world. I feel freaking stress because I m not confident that I can 100% pass the subjects in this sem or not. Especially ECON and MANAGEMENT. Maths I think I can handle well by doing more tutorial questions. For computing I dont think I can score well because I was so bad in memorizing notes. How I gonna score well in my FINAL?? I hope deactivate in FB would help me to concentrate on studies so that I will not wasted my time in STALKING people. HAHAHA XD ~~

Second, I feel so bother of someone keep using my account to post silly status and one more thing even the worst is there is people went to "LIKE" the status. OMG~ I cant believe it. Thats why I have to deactivated for temporary. I think I will back to FB soon after my FINAL.

Haiz~ There is a lot of things make me feel so annoying and terrify me. Soon it will be the last semester and its the time for me to decide my pathway after graduate from Foundation. Which course I should choose for my DEGREE and where should I stay? These Question make me freaking headache and feel like wanna die. Oh no ~ STRESS TO THE MAX !!!

Smurf`in Bad Day

Today really smurfin bad day for me.

 Firstly is nightmare about my ex boy friend. SAD T^T

I hope it wont really happen in my real life please..
Although I know we have been together for more than 4 years,
but i hope we just can be normal friend.

But as this situation, i can see, we also hard to be normal friend anymore.

Since u never find me for half an a year, that means we have no more connection. What m i expecting from you?

I really dont understand how cruel u are but i want to say thanks to you because of you so that I can have my new life without you.

Yea I do heard about you from friends but I found that I have no more interest about you. 

Sorry to say that but i do really admit i wont waiting for you anymore. 

I hope u will find a better girl and treat her good. Wish u have a happiness with future her.

Secondly, I have been fooled for waiting a friend for more than 2 hours. This make my heat reached the boiling point.

I don`t know he does really take me as not an important friend or thought that I am too generous. 

I do really get super mad and sad. 

I cried. I cried for being ignored and disagree by this close friend. 

I never feel so hurt in my friendship before. I remember last time i cried is cause of argues with my father. 

Dyem he makes me feel so down and worse. 

But i dunno why I cant stop this relationship although he hurts me so  so so so so deep. 

A person who really not gentlemen, fight with me, but he is so caring me. 

I really dont understand what`s his mind thought. So mistery and weird.

Haiz 3rd sad things is just because of my Bao Bei pendrive on a old thousand`s hand so i have to spend him Mc Flurry to get it back.

He does really pro in cheating people. I have to beware of this person. Can`t believe him easily hmm !!!

Well, while he is dropping me at MAS airport just for a cup of MC Flurry, I accidently sit on his sun glasses and IT`S BROKE..DYEM !

GOD PLEASE~why u dont bless me? It cost 80 please

Where do I go to find the same sun glasses for him.. 

I`m so sorry about your sun glasses. SORRY~!!

I do really not mean to murder ur favourite OAKLE

but i promise i will pay for what I had done to ur BAO BEI too.

P.S : 

1.  For the man who I ever loved, since that day u said u will find me out but in the end u break promise. I know the possibility we can be normal friend is super duper low. I will not reluctant you to meet up with me if you feel awkward when you see me. I also feel so sick while you try to pretend nothing happened and try to be good with me. I no need your pity on me. I m good with my own life. And you no need so avoid from me obviously like i have AIDS or H1N1 please. That`s all thank you very much. At least we ever had a sweet and good emories but i really dont understand why u want to react like that.

2.   For old thousand, please dont mention about 4 months anymore. He is no more relation with me okay. I feel so sad that you keep saying me tell a lie k? Hope you can understand my feeling and dont talk about him in front of me. Thanks for your co operation ya =)

INTI NIGHT 2011

WOOOTS FINALLY ONE MONTH HAS PASSED AND EVERYTHING HAD SETTLED DOWN AND BACK TO MY NORMAL LIFE.

THOUGHT OF LAST MONTH WE WERE BUSY OF PRACTICING CHICKEN DANCE AND PREPARATION FOR INTI NIGHT, I FEEL SO TIRED BUT WORTHY. WE GET CLAPS AFTER WE PUT A LOT OF EFFORT.

WITHIN THAT MONTH ,SADNESS AND HAPPINESS HAPPENED TOGETHER BUT THIS WILL BEOME OUR MEMORIES.

I M GLAD THAT I MET NEW FRIENDS, A GANG NAME MACHI@@ WHOSE ALL ARE SENIOR AND DIFFERENT PROGRAME WITH ME. I FEEL HAPPY TO KNEW THEM.

THESE ARE PARTICIPANTS OF INTI NIGHT ( COSTUME NIGHT ) 

WE ARE HOLDING 20 CENTS ><

OUR GANG MACHI @@

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不要说保持单身的男女没情趣，也不要说大学不谈恋爱没意思，有位名人曾说过：

“大学不谈恋爱，后悔四年.. 大学谈恋爱，后悔一辈子..”

学生时代，周围接触最多的人都年龄相仿，所以价值观都差不多，都想着将来有个好工作，有个好恋人。

正因为理想差不多，所以俩个人在一起会很开心，也就很容易走到了一起。至于恋爱是否会影响学习，这里就不说了，因为既有促进作用，也有消极作用，因人而异。

但是，当毕业后，由于工作的需要，或考研的需要，两人必须长时间分开。即使分开前信誓旦旦，但以后见面的机会将会非常少。不要说你会坚守爱情，在事业的压力下你若分心就无法使自己更优秀。而在你事业低谷时，那个搀扶你一把的人，往往使你心存感激，你会发现原来这个人就是你生命中最重要的人。而你原来爱的那个人，对你由爱生恨，你反而失去一个很好的朋友。

所以，现在若有人想跟你交往，估计也是看中近期的利益 (两人在一块的感觉，没有那么多顾虑) 而没有把眼光放远于未来的人。毕竟谈恋爱就得多多少少花钱，而钱全是父母给的生活费，你都还不会赚钱，没有自己的事业，凭什么可以乱花钱呢？从某种意义上讲，是父母在帮你谈恋爱，一点都没有靠自己的力量去追求自己的所爱。

恋人不是随意寻找的，因为在没有完全了解对方之前，对方可以为了吸引你暂时改变自己，而一旦你完全了解对方后，分手就指日可待了。

所以恋爱应该是日久生情，彼此非常熟知后自然地走在一起，甚至无需表白。
不要认为对方人很好就轻易妥协，人好不是爱情的全部，你们必须为爱情的将来做打算。

如果遇到一个你深爱的女孩，而你感觉她也喜欢你，大部分的人都是直接就开始交往了..

这样做的后果可能就是前面所说的，最后失去一个深爱的人..
你或许应该以朋友的名义关心她，在毕业后仍保持联系，然后为了她努力工作。
当你在事业上有所成就后再去找她，如果此时她仍在等你，说明你没看错人。
女孩，如果一个男生他随意就喜欢上妳，那么他以后也会很快就喜欢上别人的。

爱情晚点来，就不会走得太早。
我们并不需要靠失恋来成熟.. 不是吗？

在学校里的爱情是无知的..
在社会中的爱情可能是有目的的..
只有遇到逆境仍走下去的爱情才是永恒的..

爱情不是和一个最适合自己的人在一起，
而是遇到一个更适合自己的人时，
能够坚守自己对所爱的人作出的承诺。

爱情不是两个人眼睛对视，
而是两个人的眼光看着同一个方向。

网上的 “爱你，为你做这些事” 看起来很感人，因为大部分人都不是这种爱情。
爱情不是一种潮流，你要有自己的看法，
在你的理想恋人未出现时，你要有毅力选择一直单身，而不是找个替代品。
当你做到后，网上传的那些事，在你的爱情中是再基本不过的了。

男生，在谈恋爱时不要抱着不适合就分手的想法，一定要慎重地考虑清楚，
女朋友就是你未来的老婆，结婚只不过是多一张无用的纸而已，
结婚并不是为爱情加了锁，真正的爱情从来就不需要任何的束缚。

一旦你选择了恋爱，就要有一种责任感，
你要为你父母的儿子、你老婆的丈夫、你未来孩子的爸爸负责！

单身并没有什么不好，你一样可以关心你喜欢的人，这样可以让大众觉得你是一个很好的朋友；而恋爱中的人，关心别人则会引发醋意，从爱情观说也是对爱情不够忠诚，但不关心别人则又失去很多友谊，一旦你分手了，就赔了夫人又折兵。所以现在单身，不是说你不向往爱情，而是证明你对未来的她的一份痴情。

一个优秀的人 单身说明 这人足够优秀，
一个再优秀的人随意恋爱说明这人的优秀只是表面而已，
真正希望对方好的，就是默默在背后关心对方。
最好的承诺，不是爱你一万年，而是根本不需要承诺..

虽然分手是另一段爱情的重新开始，
但每次恋爱只有一次，一个人在恋爱中对爱情的向往是最多的..
而一旦失败，刻骨铭心…

我特别喜欢的几段：

• 爱情不是和一个最适合自己的人在一起，而是遇到一个更适​合自己的人时，能够坚守自己对所爱的人作出的承诺..
• 一个优秀的人单身说明这人足够优秀，一个再优秀的人随意​恋爱说明这人的优秀只是表面而已，真正希望对方好的，就​是默默在背后关心对方。最好的承诺，不是爱你一万年，而​是根本不需要承诺..

• 爱情不是两个人眼睛对视，而是两个人的眼光看着同一个方​向..
• 单身，并不意味着你不懂爱情，事实上，单身比陷入一段错​误的爱明智得多..
• 在你的理想恋人未出现时，你要有毅力选择一直单身，而​不是找个替代品..

• 虽然分手是另一段爱情的重新开始，但每次恋爱只有一次，​一个人在恋爱中对爱情的向往是最多的，而一旦失败，刻骨​铭心…
• 爱情晚点来，就不会走得太早.. 我们并不需要靠失恋来成熟​..

17.7.11 Sutera Habour 7K Charity Run

This is the 1st time I join jogathan run for distance 7K !! SO SO SO SO SO FAR~

But luckily the starting time is in the evening 5:17pm. We can enjoy sunset while we are running.

Actually we are representing Relax & Recreation Club of INTI COLLEGE SABAH to join this charity run. It`s meaningful and memorable moments which members of R&R run as a team. It shows our team spirit and passion. 

I am shocked there is nearly 10000 participants and a lot of different type of people regardless of any ages join this charity run. The scene is spectacular when most of the people warm up in tennis court of Sutera. 

Let me show you some of the pic, there is too much of picture so i edit it into smaller piece of picture. 

I do met my high school mates and best friends in this run, they are Carmen and Silas.

I do have a long time didnt meet up v them. Miss them so much, and miss my high school life too.

Nah, here are the combination of the pictures i took. 

We do enjoyed watching the sunset, view of Sutera Habour and also people.

The centre of this picture is our members taking the Inti College Sabah banner and taking photo.

Uinah, still manage to SS. Of course i want to took it down. 






It is my 1st time join Sutera Habour Charity Run since they had been organized for 10 years more. 








I had joined 11st 7K run.

We all are craving for foods and drinks. 

We faster find a restaurant to cure our stomach for sure.

We all look so tired but the mouth still cant stop to eating food.

Finally thanks for president of R&R club, MR EK Jason. 

Not to forget, Tunku and Eric Wong represent Inti to run for the whole journey and get 2 checkpoint card. A big THANK YOU to them.



FUFU i dunno wat to say la. Join us at last minute. But nevermind, ur SPIRIT always following us.

Thanks for the activities and it`s fun when we run as a team. HAhahaha, cant wait for the PULAU TRIP ~!!! woohooo~

Out day with Ker chi han

Ker Chi Han bring a big suprise to me and Shaneal. He was back from Miri for a week. 

Before that Neal told me when she chat with Ker last time, Ker ever mentioned that he will back to KK. But at first Neal dont believe and asking me whether is ker saying the truth. I also cant give her a certain answer.

Last Mon Neal messaged me that she suspected Ker already in KK, because she saw in facebook Ker`s bro post a status which is "Ker Chi Chun is at Borneo Wildlife Restaurant with Ker Per Chia, Ker Chi Han." So Neal believe that Ker is at KK. So she decide to ask where is Ker.

Neal : Ker Chi Han !!!

Ker : Yes?

Neal : Where are you?

Ker : In Miri lo...

Neal : ...

Wakaka!! Terus Bongkar Rahsia liao ma. Neal pun didnt ask Ker at KK or Miri. Normal answer will be at home ah, or maybe school. Who dunno Ker at Miri now ler?? Hahaha funny la. So from here Neal more confirm Ker is at KK now.

Noon time, Neal is inviting me out to yum cha at city mall there. I came ealier than Neal so I had a window shopping while waiting for her. Then I was wishing to buy a sport shoes since I want to rock climbing with Neal. Some more, there is sale in Lea Sport so I walk in and choosing a sport shoes. Neal is reached and then she say : Dont buy at here la, I bring you to other place which got sell better shoes. Then I was pulled out  from that shop. She bring me to BC Studio which is selling those sexy pyjamas and branded underwear. I was wonder why she say here got sell sport shoes de ler? Suddenly have a young man appear in front of me and say Hi to me, I was shocked and hit him kuat sekali. He was Ker !! Haha Then he is here right now. Memang evil punya.

Then next day we going to have lunch and hanging around because I need to pay bills and there is lack of time to have a movie. So sad and sorry to my Friends everytime i have to pay bill, especially to Neal. She already been SESB together with me three times. HAHA!!! And I do have to pay my 1st get SAMAN to DBKK. Really is a good lesson for me, Everything can save but except parking fee cannot save !! Illegal parking will get saman ni and dun underestimate Malaysia Police efficiency oh. Even 10 minutes you already have a piece of paper clip under your wiper.

Neal like long time didnt hang out with Ker, She like go insane and always talking cold jokes. I swear I really laugh until very tired and stomache la. HAHAHA !!! Ker say she is showing real her. I really SWEAT when she so sot ni. When enter SASA, workers say SASA, then Neal replied SOT SOT. SWT ==|||

But we also have our fun time in KAISON. HEHE~^^

We are CHUN LI SISTERS ^^

MYSTERY GIRL

Time flies so fast and Ker is ready going back to his study place, Miri. But he will back again on June. So dont worry Ker, we will miss your laugh and jokes bring to us. Good luck in ur studies and all the best. Wait you come back we go out again do silly things. HAha~!!!

KER CHI HAN. WE MISS YOU.

20.4.2011 UNLUCKY DAY

Shaneal invited me to swim in tanjung aru golf club there. So i am goin to prepare my cloth and bag. When i reach home i almost forgot Im gonna send my maid back to her house. But when I am looking at my watch, it`s pointing 3.20pm. I am praying that I wont be too late. Then after sending kakak back, everythings are fine.

But tat`s traffic jam at damai point there. TTSS student is released from school. NO CHOICE, WAITING IS THE WAY. So I am just waiting and waiting. But dunno what happen, the lane which my car is lining up dun have any movement, then the cars in the next lane move so smooth. So I decided to cut to next lane, cars were stopped and the cars beside me were started moving. OH SHIT !! WHAT HAPPEN ?? I`m hoping that my car have LED light tat writing "I am rushing" so people can let me go. haha!! or How nice if I am driving ambulance car. Everyone will let me go 1st because Im in hurry. WAKAKAKA!!!


Finally reached SHANEAL house and straight to tanjung aru. We just swim for an hour because my sis finish her tuition at 5.30 pm and I need to pick her up. After swimming we felt a bit hungry so we park at the outside of the food court of  TG ARU there. We walk out and find some food to heal our stomach. We bought some junk food and fruits then go back to car.


OUR CONVERSATION : 
Jeshree : Neal, Do you think we will get saman cause we park at illegal parking lot?
Shaneal : Wont la. Wont be so fast. They(police) are slow type.
Jeshree : Dont so fast made a judegement, sometimes they are fast but you didnt know it.


When we get inside car, Shaneal is drinking her air tebu and feeling so good. While I am eating the corn. We didnt notice that a bad things is waiting for us.


Shaneal : Eh, Jesh. look at this. What is this? Try to take it eh. Not saman bha right? Wont be so unlucky one.


She is pointing a piece of paper which clipped by the sweeper. I go take it and read properly. WALAO~!!
REALLY HOCK LA. Straight kena saman o. Not even over 15 minutes we get in to food court there. Next time dont park at there anymore, Damn It !!! REALY SO UNLUCKY MAN~!!!


Argh~ every car of that parking lot also have a piece of paper on the mirror of the car. Their efficiency is so high !! We don`t even saw their shadow LOL...


So unlucky then that is traffic jam everywhere. This is the first time I get saman LOL. So adventure and unforgetful. XD

BLING BLING !!!

MY CAM WHICH FOLLOW ME SINCE 06'
SIDE VIEW

FRONT VIEW

MY FAVOURITE BLING BLING. As my friends and my family know that I am crazy of bling2. I do love this shiny little stone. It does make me feel so happy and luxury. Everytime I window shopping of those accessories shop, my legs will out of control stopped by and my eyes keep starred on those shinny stones. But of course nowadays these kind of stuff is not so hit anymore and it`s market is dropping down. So that`s why it`s price is cheaper and cheaper. That`s mean I can afford to buy it. Yea~!!!


LET ME SHOW YOU SOME WORKS THAT I EVER MADE.

THIS IS THE CASE THAT I AM USING NOW.
SE W995.

ROSES IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CASE.
I LOVE PURPLE.

MY CALCULATOR.

I LOVE THIS SO MUCHIE.
CASE OF SE W995.

I LOVE THE RIBBON TOO.
CASE OF SE W995.

I HOPE THE "M" CAN CHANGE TO "J"
CASE OF SE W995.

## I HATE PEOPLE LIKE TO PEEL OFF MY SHINNY STONES. 


AFTER SEEING IT, I HOPE YOU WILL LIKE IT. BUT BLING BLING HAS A BENEFIT WHICH DOES HELP ME PRODUCE FRICTION WHILE MY HAND CONTACT WITH MY PHONE. ITS HELP ME TO HOLD MY PHONE TIGHLY. SO IT WONT FALL FROM MY HAND EASILY AND MY HEART WONT SO PAIN. HEHE =]

我的新玩具

那天和Janice一起逛逛吃午餐，我也顺便要买一些香水放在我的车厢里，让我的车香喷喷的，让乘客感觉良好。


和她走进了正东文具店逛逛，无意中让我发现了这个小玩意。挺可爱的。


纽扣设计的耳机，让我爱不释手。它也让我的听觉享受更上一层楼，棒极了！


价钱也很公道，我决定买下它了。


至今，有了它的陪伴，我能把歌曲细细地，慢慢地品尝。而不是粗略的带过，让我更清晰的聆听歌曲。

我为我的爱车买的装饰品

我的方向盘套套，是HELLO KITTY哦！

爱死了！一点都带不出那恶心的可爱感，

我觉得黑色很酷~

讨厌粉红的。感觉很幼稚。

 这里还有HELLO KITTY 的文字

酷毙了

我的方向盘

下方都是猫咪的脸型

 我还为我的椅子加了枕头垫

好让司机和乘客坐得舒舒服服。

 我的安全带也不例外

恶魔公仔的脚下有个小袋袋

是用来放电话的，多方便啊

纸巾盒的套套，照片有稍微的模糊。不好意思哦。

我的爱人们

我好怀念与你们共度的时光

虽然仅仅认识了半年的时间

但我们却亲近得像一家人

我们共享喜怒哀乐

一起努力奋斗，一起放松玩乐

感谢有你们陪伴在我的生涯中

有缘认识你们是我最大的幸福

我爱你们TZ8

这些都是我的女朋友

我们一起去tesco购物

一起去ghany喝茶，看帅哥

一起吃晚饭

一起淋着雨以最快的速度安全到达家

一起逛夜市，唱K

一起去荡秋千，聊天

和你们在一起我是幸福的

这些都是我的男朋友

不管你们是单身还是已婚

你们犹如男朋友的关心我

我们一起开玩笑

一起共度晚餐

一起玩弄寿星

一起争取时间表

一起光顾新开的餐厅

和你们一起我是幸福的

我和你们的组合照

我和你们的组合照

感谢上帝让我遇见了你们，我爱你们！

失眠的夜晚

在这寂静的夜晚，我又失眠了。

本来想聆听着悦耳既轻松的旋律助我安稳地入眠。

可是，不幸的是，这办法失效了。

聆听着伤悲的曲子，这让我想起了他

不知不觉，我们已经分开了三个月。

不晓得他过得好不好，开心吗？习惯单身的日子吗？

我以为我可以过得很好，但其实不。

我经常安慰自我，时间能淡化一切的。

我相信这个原理，但，到底需要多长的时间我才能真正地放下我们的过去呢？

我经常听一些失恋疗伤曲来减轻我的痛苦

利用曲子里的歌词来鞭策自己

作为人生原则的参考

但这种情况到底能耐到何时？

我需要一个肩膀来靠一靠，让我暂且放松自己紧绷的神经

好怀念从前的那个我。

我好想做回我自己。