Nicky

Well, it`s been a long time i didnt contact with u anymore. 

You are the one who can make my heart beat faster when you are holding my hand. Remember it was the first time I met with you and you holding my hand tightly. My face was so hot and red. I was trying to pull out my hand but you never let me go. I swear I wont forget the feeling at that moment. You are the one make me feel like electric shock. This is the only memory of my feeling on you that I wont forget.

The most disappointed things that you done to me. 

Last time I remember we have a date and meet at the park nearby our house. I remember that day was a heavy down pour day, but I still holding the umbrella and walked to the park and wait you. 

But who knew, you did not show up your face, and you did leave me alone waiting for you for half an hour. You know there were 15 spots of mosquito bites on my leg? It was so suffering and the weather was freaking cold. I was worried that you couldn`t find me after I went home. So I keep waiting for u. I dunno is God wanna test us or what? I did not bring my cellphone and call you. I was so sad, cold, and disappointed. 

After I went home for 2 hours, only I get your call. The reason you didnt show up is you overslept. I was so sad and hurt you know. BUT I did not said I went to the park just now. I think you never know this is the reason I wanna break with you. Of course there are other reasons too. 

Why I suddenly wanna pour out my puppy love in here? It was because there is another guy make my leg in suffer of mosquitoes bites. He recall me about you, Nicky. I never expect that this will happen to me twice. And the result still the same. At last, i get nothing after my leg was sacrifice to the worst mosquitoes. I also waiting for him for hald an hour at the beach. You are the 2nd guy make me willing to wait you and without any blames and angry. I dunno why? 

New Life

It`s valentines day ! Well, for me, it just a normal Tuesday and Single Day. Nothing special.

But I will remember this day cause I did celebrate with my friends and coursemates.

Before today, there was something hurtful and serious incident happened in my life, never been so hurt and make me feel disappointed of a person that I m trying to love.
Nevermind, is his choice to make this decision. So fine, just accept it. Nothing can change his mind anymore.
If I care more on him, SURE I will be hurt and my heart cant affort the hurt anymore. So better just treat it as normal. Treat myself better, I will be happier.

Well, I was freaking emo just now until I scream of crying ! It`s killing me. When I need him the most, he wasn`t there for me. He was left me for more than 3 hours. My heart was burning and hard to breath. He makes me feel very sakit hati. 

Luckily there is still FRIENDS in this world. I`m glad that u guys still beside me when Im alone. Is u guys tell me that I m not always alone, I LOVE LOVE LOVE u guys so much ! 

Well, thats all i wanna express for today. Really enough tired of being cheated and fooled by him. It`s a right time to stop this and just be a normal friend. Alright, Thank you for bringing much special moments to me. Nights

Dragon Show by INTIMA ( 4.2.12

HAD A LOT OF FUN !!
We got play some games by answering question based on the no we had chose.
Really amazing and high !
I really never thought that my group will be the winner.
WE WON THE 1ST PRIZE, YEAH ~!!!

My group member consist of
-Principal of INTI which is DR ALAN
-Head of deen MISS ANNE
-Students : Silver, Ivan, Nelson, Anderson, Ken and of course me.

Time : 6.31pm

Tomorrow will be a suffer day. My millions and billion of brain cells will been killed and dead after I do my paper, MANAGEMENT. God please bless me, I hope I can at least pass in this paper. Until now I haven`t start even a word and ITS A LOTS OF NOTE TO MEMORIZE. OMG ~
Stop procrastinate please ...

Depression

How I gonna express my feeling now? My heart was like strike by few knifes. Feel like wanna crying out loud but failed to do that. My heart was been hurt so deeply. MY GOSH !


GOD, please show me a direction how I gonna passed this difficult stage. T^T 


I am listening to a Korea song and keep repeating it. Although I could not understand this foreign language, but I can feel the blue from the melody. Just like my feeling right now. I write this blog isnt wan`t to show you how sad am I. Just wanna tell you how you are so important for me as a BEST FRIEND.

BEST FRIEND, I know is my fault, I made apologize and you didn`t accept it. I can understand because I ever hurt you twice before. You will never forgive me easily this time. I am ready for it. Just waiting for you to say that word to me. BUT YOU NEVER DO THAT.


I feel so sorry and cant forgive myself. I know you are trying to minimize our argument and stay happy. Is my fault, my stupid, hurt you and spoiled your trust on me. I am here to say : SORRY ...!!

I REALLY HOPE I COULD DO SOMETHING FOR YOU TO MAKE YOU FELL HAPPY. ANYTHING YOU LIKE.

PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME THAT WAY, BEST FRIEND...

 

STRESS

There`s been a long time I didn`t update my blog as well. It is the right time for me to blog.

I had deactivated my facebook account for some private reasons. 

First of all, I think probably is my final exam is near to the corner. It just left 11 days to the end of the world. I feel freaking stress because I m not confident that I can 100% pass the subjects in this sem or not. Especially ECON and MANAGEMENT. Maths I think I can handle well by doing more tutorial questions. For computing I dont think I can score well because I was so bad in memorizing notes. How I gonna score well in my FINAL?? I hope deactivate in FB would help me to concentrate on studies so that I will not wasted my time in STALKING people. HAHAHA XD ~~

Second, I feel so bother of someone keep using my account to post silly status and one more thing even the worst is there is people went to "LIKE" the status. OMG~ I cant believe it. Thats why I have to deactivated for temporary. I think I will back to FB soon after my FINAL.

Haiz~ There is a lot of things make me feel so annoying and terrify me. Soon it will be the last semester and its the time for me to decide my pathway after graduate from Foundation. Which course I should choose for my DEGREE and where should I stay? These Question make me freaking headache and feel like wanna die. Oh no ~ STRESS TO THE MAX !!!

Smurf`in Bad Day

Today really smurfin bad day for me.

 Firstly is nightmare about my ex boy friend. SAD T^T

I hope it wont really happen in my real life please..
Although I know we have been together for more than 4 years,
but i hope we just can be normal friend.

But as this situation, i can see, we also hard to be normal friend anymore.

Since u never find me for half an a year, that means we have no more connection. What m i expecting from you?

I really dont understand how cruel u are but i want to say thanks to you because of you so that I can have my new life without you.

Yea I do heard about you from friends but I found that I have no more interest about you. 

Sorry to say that but i do really admit i wont waiting for you anymore. 

I hope u will find a better girl and treat her good. Wish u have a happiness with future her.

Secondly, I have been fooled for waiting a friend for more than 2 hours. This make my heat reached the boiling point.

I don`t know he does really take me as not an important friend or thought that I am too generous. 

I do really get super mad and sad. 

I cried. I cried for being ignored and disagree by this close friend. 

I never feel so hurt in my friendship before. I remember last time i cried is cause of argues with my father. 

Dyem he makes me feel so down and worse. 

But i dunno why I cant stop this relationship although he hurts me so  so so so so deep. 

A person who really not gentlemen, fight with me, but he is so caring me. 

I really dont understand what`s his mind thought. So mistery and weird.

Haiz 3rd sad things is just because of my Bao Bei pendrive on a old thousand`s hand so i have to spend him Mc Flurry to get it back.

He does really pro in cheating people. I have to beware of this person. Can`t believe him easily hmm !!!

Well, while he is dropping me at MAS airport just for a cup of MC Flurry, I accidently sit on his sun glasses and IT`S BROKE..DYEM !

GOD PLEASE~why u dont bless me? It cost 80 please

Where do I go to find the same sun glasses for him.. 

I`m so sorry about your sun glasses. SORRY~!!

I do really not mean to murder ur favourite OAKLE

but i promise i will pay for what I had done to ur BAO BEI too.

P.S : 

1.  For the man who I ever loved, since that day u said u will find me out but in the end u break promise. I know the possibility we can be normal friend is super duper low. I will not reluctant you to meet up with me if you feel awkward when you see me. I also feel so sick while you try to pretend nothing happened and try to be good with me. I no need your pity on me. I m good with my own life. And you no need so avoid from me obviously like i have AIDS or H1N1 please. That`s all thank you very much. At least we ever had a sweet and good emories but i really dont understand why u want to react like that.

2.   For old thousand, please dont mention about 4 months anymore. He is no more relation with me okay. I feel so sad that you keep saying me tell a lie k? Hope you can understand my feeling and dont talk about him in front of me. Thanks for your co operation ya =)